Identity Crisis

Given the recent enforcement upon me to get to know few aspects of Neuro PhyscologyI looked back and realized that I'm having an identity crisis ! Yes, that's true, crisis of my real identity.

It dawned on when A said that there is a disconnect between me and my surroundings, as it depended on how I reacted in the past.

What I'm today is not who I was or whom I've been. But times have changed, I've changed or forced to change, by time. It has consequences.

A was absolutely right, while some part of me resisted the reality, it is what it is. Reason for the resistance was "what I'm today is not who I was". Eric Erickson says the onset of the identity crisis is in the teenage years, and only individuals who succeed in resolving the crisis will be ready to face future challenges in life. But the identity crisis may well be recurring, as the changing world demands us to constantly redefine ourselves. People experience an identity crisis when they lose "a sense of personal sameness and historical continuity".

Loosing "personal samness and historical continuity", wow great words. That's right. When time and event's in my life forces changes, they're aren't easy and there is a clear disconnect between the present and the past. My mind revolts. Fear of loosing the 'sameness' prevails, while failing to connect back.

While, what lead to this is what I should be focused on now, to resolve, I realized its a catch-22. I can't resolve when I don't have a 'historical continuity', but I need to handle or handle better, the same disconnect, in order for me to stay focused.

I now think, this is life. You get dinged on your sides when you roll, but you got to keep moving.

Momentary stops and healing those wounds out of dings are the forces acting, to stop you from moving. Very interesting dilemma.